i know im kinda dramatic and uber sensitive at times. i tend to take things differently and minsan hindi ko mapigil mag self pity. i dont know really if it's just me or yun talaga ang dapat kong maramdaman. is it the people around me? is it the situation that i am in? or is it just the effect of my frustrations of being a drama queen?
those happy thoughts are inside me and hindi ko mapigil magpaka-nostalgic. i kept thinking na sana di na natapos yung happy-moment-sana-forever-na-ito feeling. i can't stop being bitter. sad, and anxious about what things could happen to me/us if i stayed.
at times, i can't control my emotions. i easily get hurt with people around me. i know it's not their intention to make me feel this way but a simple insensitivity could lead into misunderstandings. i know that i have to be smarter than who and what i am now, but part of me is still holding back. my slight immaturity is haunting me.
USED.
friends come and go. that is something that i have to accept. but it's hard for me to deal with the fact that i have to let go a friend dahil hindi na nya ako kailangan. dahil masaya na siya. because he can stand on his own now. because i can't make him happy or laugh anymore. my jokes are already baduy for him.
it's pathetic to get affected with someone who is not even bothered if you are offended or not. sometimes, i keep telling myself that i should not waste my efforts to him. i have to let go.
ABUSED.
loving someone is not easy. hindi din madaling gawin ang "unconditional love" hindi lang sa kamag anak, sa karelasyon, at kahit na sa kaibigan. pero there are days that i feel na hindi na yata fair. na parang hindi na balance.
we need one another. that's a fact. that is something we cannot deny. no matter how independent we are, we still need someone to complete us.
i often try my best to please everybody. to be nice. to be helpful. to be kind. not because i have the ulterior things running inside my head, im not that type.
minsan, i tend to be insensitive pagdating sa sarili ko. doormat. walang pakialam kung sobra na ba ang naibibigay ko. basta mahal ko, i wouldn't mind at all. im happy making my loved ones happy. there are times that i tried to be happy just to satisfy them. i tried to be okay just to please them. i tried to laugh even if it's not funny anymore.
poor me...
those happy thoughts are inside me and hindi ko mapigil magpaka-nostalgic. i kept thinking na sana di na natapos yung happy-moment-sana-forever-na-ito feeling. i can't stop being bitter. sad, and anxious about what things could happen to me/us if i stayed.
at times, i can't control my emotions. i easily get hurt with people around me. i know it's not their intention to make me feel this way but a simple insensitivity could lead into misunderstandings. i know that i have to be smarter than who and what i am now, but part of me is still holding back. my slight immaturity is haunting me.
USED.
friends come and go. that is something that i have to accept. but it's hard for me to deal with the fact that i have to let go a friend dahil hindi na nya ako kailangan. dahil masaya na siya. because he can stand on his own now. because i can't make him happy or laugh anymore. my jokes are already baduy for him.
it's pathetic to get affected with someone who is not even bothered if you are offended or not. sometimes, i keep telling myself that i should not waste my efforts to him. i have to let go.
ABUSED.
loving someone is not easy. hindi din madaling gawin ang "unconditional love" hindi lang sa kamag anak, sa karelasyon, at kahit na sa kaibigan. pero there are days that i feel na hindi na yata fair. na parang hindi na balance.
we need one another. that's a fact. that is something we cannot deny. no matter how independent we are, we still need someone to complete us.
i often try my best to please everybody. to be nice. to be helpful. to be kind. not because i have the ulterior things running inside my head, im not that type.
minsan, i tend to be insensitive pagdating sa sarili ko. doormat. walang pakialam kung sobra na ba ang naibibigay ko. basta mahal ko, i wouldn't mind at all. im happy making my loved ones happy. there are times that i tried to be happy just to satisfy them. i tried to be okay just to please them. i tried to laugh even if it's not funny anymore.
poor me...
keep tryin!
kaya siguro minsan naabuso na. that's human. you can't expect people to be mindful sa paligid nila. sa mga tao. sa damdamin. they will love you when they want you. they will please you when they need you but when it's over, ano ka na sa kanila? tae? basura? basahan?
i know i watch too much telenovelas lately. i may be too dramatic. OA. assuming.
but please...
you can USE me, but don't ABUSE me.
kaya siguro minsan naabuso na. that's human. you can't expect people to be mindful sa paligid nila. sa mga tao. sa damdamin. they will love you when they want you. they will please you when they need you but when it's over, ano ka na sa kanila? tae? basura? basahan?
i know i watch too much telenovelas lately. i may be too dramatic. OA. assuming.
but please...
you can USE me, but don't ABUSE me.
6 Pakelamera:
bKIt myka sino nagaabuse sayo gulpihin naten!! itaguyod ang kababaihan! hahahahahahah. mare namiss kita. wag mo dibdibin mga abuser nasusunog yan at nakukulong.
"it's hard for me to deal with the fact that i have to let go a friend dahil hindi na nya ako kailangan. dahil masaya na siya. "
I remember the time, last year yata yun, nang ipost ko rin sa blog yung halos ganito kong linya. sabi ko, kung tama pa memory ko, hirap kasing magkalkal sa archives, "hindi niya na ako kailangan, mas kailangan na ako ngayon ng sarili ko"
O di ba mas drama ang effect hehehe.. till now di pa rin naman ako ganung nakakarecover. masyado kasi akong malakas magmahal ng kaibigan kaya ganun, mahirap palang masktan kapag sobra sobra na.
"no matter how independent we are, we still need someone to complete us."
tama. pero kailangan din pala nating initindihin na maski sila, kailangan din nila tayo. minsan kasi, sa sobrang pokus natin na tayo ang nangangailangan ng karamay, hindi natin napapansing pati sila, kailangan tayo bilang karamay. masyado rin tayong nagiging selfish.
" they will love you when they want you. they will please you when they need you but when it's over, ano ka na sa kanila?"
best line ever. parang pelikula lang hehehe... gusto ko talaga tong linya na to. kapag nagkaroon ng pagkakataong magdrama ulit ako sa blog ko, gagamitin ko to hahahaha!!
http://fjordz-hiraya.blogspot.com
i know the feeling... ganun yata talaga mare... just because you let them feel that they are important to you, they think its ok for them to hurt you, eventually...
sobrang tinamaan naman daw ako sa huling linya... perfect ending statement!!!
Alam mo friend minsan masarap din magpa abuse :)
JOKE LANG.
Sino ba tong user/abuser no to? Ipakain natin sa t-rex mo!
@tentay,
kirek ka mare, pero kahit na inabuso na ko, mahal ko parin tong friend ko na to. hay...
@fjords
sige paphiram ko sayo yung linya ko. alam ko naman na minsan ako ang kailangan nila. hindi lang ako sa sarili ko nakapokus. kaso sa sobrang pokus ko sa kanila, nakakalimutan ko na rin ung sarili ko. ang gulo ko:)
@she,
more of taking advantage mare, alam na di mo sila matitiis, kaya yun, torture! apir.
@ewwwik
haha. matulis nga yang ending statement ko na yan. ipang tarak mo rin sa mga balak umabuso sayo.
@efrenefren
kirek mare, tapos ipatusok ko sa sungay ng unicorn mo ha?
isa itong friend. friend daw oh?
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